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I have never been very good at keeping with writing blogs or keeping up with other people's blogs. I have always felt bad about this because everyone else seems to be able to do it. Because I feel like I am failing for not finishing something I have started. But then I realized that in the last year. I have been putting my bookclub, my spiritual group, my family, my beautiful Goddess daughter Mia and my calling ahead of blogging. When I sit back and weigh those things against a blog I have nothing to feel guilty about.
When I was growing up I was taught to feel guilty, to feel shame and that I was unimportant. I was sent this message over and over again, until it was it was so ingrained, so apart of my psyche that I wasn't aware of it and never questioned it. One of the hardest things for me to learn is that it is not my job to carry other people's crosses. It is not my job to take on the cosmic lessons that were intended for others to learn. I am not Jesus and it is not my calling to bear the weight of the world. I love my friends and my family and all that the Divine resides in, but sometimes loving means not doing the work for them and just doing my own.
