Highschool? How'd I get back here?

MM,

I am 30, but there are still times where I find myself  in situations or meet people who make me feel like I am back in highschool.  I find too many people are emotional and mentally stuck in highschool.  It's like there body kept growing and they physically walked out the school doors, but left the rest of themselves there.  I really just want to ask them, "Is highschool is so great that you never want to leave?"  If so, I wish I went to your school, because the one that I went to was a hell and I couldn't wait to leave. I genuinely, feel sorry for people who allow their insecurity to keep them in highschool.  I think that it is a shame to allow how badly you feel about yourself to behave and treat others badly.  Projecting your BS onto others doesn't make you "the most popular kid in school or head cheerleader or Team Captain."  All it does is make you the bully.  So, I guess what I am saying is if you are 30 and over and are still in highschool, go see the highschool counsellor and get your s*** figured out and graduate.  I will personally be there to hold your hand and hug you when you do.  It's a rite of passage and growing pains suck.  I know, I feel your pain and I look forward to the day that we can grab a coffee and laugh.

The Waiting Game

Recently,The Universe has been sending me everything I need build the future I want.  I am being sent the people I need to learn what I need to learn.  I am being sent the opprotunities I need to create the opprotunities I want.  Unfortunately, one of those opprotunities doesn't start until September.  But sometimes you have to trust The Universe know when and how things need to happen to help create the best and brightest light for me.

Guilt and Shame

MM,

I have never been very good at keeping with writing blogs or keeping up with other people's blogs.  I have always felt bad about this because everyone else seems to be able to do it.  Because I feel like I am failing for not finishing something I have started.  But then I realized that in the last year.  I have been putting my bookclub, my spiritual group, my family, my beautiful Goddess daughter Mia and my calling ahead of blogging.  When I sit back and weigh those things against a blog I have nothing to feel guilty about.

When I was growing up I was taught to feel guilty, to feel shame and that I was unimportant.  I was sent this message over and over again, until it was it was so ingrained, so apart of my psyche that I wasn't aware of it and never questioned it.  One of the hardest things for me to learn is that it is not my job to carry other people's crosses.  It is not my job to take on the cosmic lessons that were intended for others to learn.  I am not Jesus and it is not my calling to bear the weight of the world.  I love my friends and my family and all that the Divine resides in, but sometimes loving means not doing the work for them and just doing my own.

Off To See The Whisperer!

MM,

I am very excited about tomorrow because Jeffery, Leia and I are going to go to the Cesar Millan Event at the Pet Valu in Cabbagetown.  Unfortunately, he is there for only an hour and a half and I worry that there will be so many people that even though I somehow managed to get the day off work that we will not be able to see him.  I admit I would be heartbroken now that I have gone to the trouble of taking time off work, getting Leia facial trim and building it up in my head if I don't get to meet Cesar.

WhatI It Means To Meet Them

This weekend I had the pleasure of joining my loving husband at our first Fan Expo in Toronto.  I'll be honest for the most part I was completely disappointed.  Between the complete lack of organization and surprising lack of organization, I spent the majority of the expo just following Jeff around the vendors floor.  But all of that didn't matter in the end because I had the extreme pleasure of attending the Q & A with Stan Lee, as well as the signing afterwards.  I have always looked up to him and while no I didn't totally mark over the meeting, I was incredibly impressed that he acknowledge our thank yous.  Also, even though he had a million more to do, he allowed Jeff to take a quick pic as he slide the autograph to the handler to hand to Jeff.  It was a dream come true.
I also really enjoyed the sketching duals between Steven McNiven and Ethan Van Sciver, and Doug Mahnke and Francis Manapul.   Jeff and I were told that these were the real gems of the expo and they absolutely are.  Ethan Van Sciver is hilarious, but listening to him, you could really tell how intelligent he is.  I was blown away by their brilliant talent.  I really want to go back through my comics to see if I have any of their work, just so I can better appreciate.

So Proud!

On Friday, my younger brother is graduating from B.A.S.H.A. in New Hampshire.  I'm so proud of him.  He has never been school friendly, but he found his passion and hasn't turned back.  Congratulations Phil!

Blows My Mind!

I don't want to use this blog to cause drama, but sometimes when I hear or see something that really bothers I feel the need to talk about it.  Today a friend of mine told me about something that her partner said/did that was just really heartbreaking and inconsiderate.  What he said/did is between them and that is not for me to  blog.  But I am just astounded by how inconsiderate he was and I cannot understand how anyone can be so inconsiderate to someone that they are supposed to love.  Mind you I cannot understand how people can be so inconsiderate as a whole.  There are times when we are all inconsiderate, but there is a difference between the small, unintended inconsiderations and those that really hurt people.  I really hope for the best for my friend.